Friday, November 06, 2009

A Life Worth Living

I am so annoyed and irritated for so many reasons...but this time it was triggered by blogger. I just COMPLETED a post and went to put an image on as a finishing touch and all my edits to the original post (which was actually most of the post) disappeared.

I don't feel like writing it again...but my point was that unless I get my old life back...the one where I unselfconsciously sang out loud at the top of my lungs...I don't want to live.

...and I feel hopeless and pretty certain that life, the one worth living, is gone for good.


Anonymous said...

Hang in there! I'm sure that once you're out of the hole, things will become "normal" once again.
Blogger really sucks, I agree.

Friend of the Bear said...

Hi Aqua. I've had many posts disappear. The only answer is to press Ctrl + z as quickly as possible before the auto save saves nothing.

The best thing is to write it in a word processing doc and paste in. This is only possible if you change the encoding (on blogger) to "western european (windows)".

I don't know how you can get back to being your previous self. I haven't been able at all to return to the person I used to be before my breakdown. Not remotely. I'm not sure that there is a way back. I wish very much that there was because otherwise I am trapped forever as a mental health patient with no useful role in life and practically no life at all. I'm just filling in time before I die.

It depends what your old life was like. To identify what exactly is different - why were things OK then and not now.

Best wishes,
Bearfriend xx

Harriet said...

Ugh, how frustrating. I also compose my posts in MS word and copy them into my blog. Much safer.

Maybe you'll want to write it again another day.

Feeling hopeless is awful, I'm sorry you're feeling that way. Really sorry.

merope3 said...

Yeah, I second the "blogger sucks" comment. Randomly losing an hour's worth of writing for no apparent reason is why I no longer use it.