I thought, if I focused on what made me happy, if I did all the things on my schedule I committed to, if I had a benevolent schedule set up, and if I kept pushing and pushing through my decrease in mood; I thought I could stave of falling into the black hole of depression again.
I tried, and am trying, but I can't change the direction I am headed, farther and farther into another cycle of depression. I am so tired right now I feel literally sick. Driving the last two blocks on my way home today I could barely stay awake. All I want to do is sleep. I am weepy, and anxious and irritable. I feel dead again. I can't keep trying anymore.
Sing Yourself Into Breathing
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On a previous post, "Sheet Music" , I was extolling the value of singing
lessons. Harriet posted a comment about thinking about singing lessons to
help h...
14 years ago
4 comments:
I'm so sorry things are going downward. Give yourself what you need, lots of rest, eating right, etc. I hope Dr. X has some good suggestions for you. Please keep trying.
Keep going, the light will come back. Depression seems endless but it doesn't last forever. Just treat yourself right, be good to yourself. Take it easy.
XX
Bossy Boots
For whatever it's worth, you're not alone.
You can keep going. Even though it seems like you aren't doing anything, choosing to be here is fighting the depression. Fake it til you make it. You are not alone.
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