Friday, March 14, 2008

Today I Lost My Best Friend

I took Bert into the vet today and had him put to sleep. His life was quickly becoming one of no quality. I couldn't watch him struggle and suffer anymore. It was the hardest thing to do; to make the decision to euthanize him. I wish I could have gone with him. I loved him so much and I feel lost without him at home.

Berty, I already miss you more than I can express. I hope you understand I helped you go because I cared so much about you.

Love Aqua


jcat said...

Oh sweetie, big hug to you. It's so hard, even when you know deep down that you have done the right thing. I know it couldn't have been easy to do.

Missing them never goes away entirely, but in a while you will be able to think of him and remember how special he was.

Much love,

Anonymous said...

Somehow I stumbled across your blog - and read your sweet dedication to Bert your friend. I am so sorry and wish you well. I remember having to make the same decision about my dog years ago, and I missed her for so long. Now I have a new dog and the pain has passed and transmuted, and I remember her with affection, with something special that will never leave me.

All the best.

Aqua said...

Thanks Jcat and Anonymous,
The house seems so empty without him. I am stumbling across his toys, cookie crumbs, and other small reminders of him and missing him so much.

Polar Bear said...

I'm so sorry.

Charlie Ruins said...

I just stumbled upon your blog as I was trying to google how much Epival it takes to overdose...
In regards to this post...coincidentally, I also had to put my beautiful dog to sleep about a month ago. It knocked me on my ass, and I thought that I would die.
I hope that you are okay, and I am really sorry.

Aqua said...

Thank you Polar Bear and Darcie,
I am sorry to hear about your dog Darcie. It is a tough thing to get through when you care so much for them.

In respect to the Epival, please call your pdoc or the crisis line, or take yourself to the hospital. There may be another dog or puppy that will need you in the future and the world needs more people who care for and about animals.

madison said...
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madison said...

Aqua I am sorry for your loss.

I had to put my 16 year old golden retriever named Rudy to sleep la few years ago and I still miss him. He was such a good dog, and the house seemed empty with out him.
But you did it for a good reason. You couldn't stand to see him suffer, and so you eased him of his pain.

My cat[that I have had since she was 2 weeks old] died. We think she got into something and was poisined, so we scheduled a emergency vet appointment and about 10 minutes before i had to leave she wanted to go outside, so I let her outside[ she is an indoors/outdoors cat] and hen i went to call her she didn't come so I went to look or and she was laying down on my beach in front of the water. She had wanted to go outside and be by her favorite place when she died.

Aqua said...

I am so sorry to hear about your cat's passing away. I find it sad, but beautiful that she was able to pass away in her favourite place. I undersatnd too how you still miss your dog. I really think I will miss Bert forever. Thank you for visiting my blog.

madison said...

Thanks. I havn't quite gotten over Annie [the cat] as I still have her body in my horse trailer waiting to have her creamated like I did for Rudy.

It was hard, but I have a new dog Ralph and hes great. And the year before I had a golden fall through the ice and drown so thats not easy t all.

KBAB said...

Sorry to hear/read about your dog. That is terribly hard. He looks like a great pup, though! I'm sure you gave him a great life.