Saturday, March 22, 2008
High and Full of Creativity
This is only the second painting that I have ever completed. I'm just learning to paint, but I think it turned out pretty well and I feel good about my attempt. For me to even say that I must be feeling better.
Dr. X adjusted my medication yesterday and today I have been feeling so incredible. He increased my Dexedrine to 10mg spansules (time release capsules) twice a day, once at 8am and once at noon. It did wonders for me today.
Before I was taking a 10mg Dexedrine spansule in a.m. and then a 5mg regular release Dexedrine at noon. I was crashing big time at 3pm. I had to sleep for 2-3 hours and had no energy or motivation to make dinner, eat dinner, clean-up. It was awful.
Today I didn't crash like I have been doing. In fact, I painted all day and only noticed it was 7:30pm when I was finished my painting. I even forgot to eat. That is a sure sign I feel better. Whenever my mood goes up I get creative and I stop eating.
This painting is a rendition of a picture I found months ago in the newspaper when the Myanmar riots were going on. I changed the original picture, but used its idea as a reference. I loved the idea of the peaceful resistance vs. the armed guards, the dark vs. the light, the good vs. the evil (and/or the difficulties in deciding what is right/wrong). I am sure the soldiers believe what they are doing is right, as do the Buddhists.
I also thought the picture reminded me of the yin and yang of life. I was also struck by the dichotomous nature of the physical government authorities and authorities of the soul being combined in one picture.